borderline aspergers/odd/adhd

Shukakun · 2017-10-31T11:28:39+00:00

Sheesh. I know where you come from, but you have to realize that these terms are extremely over-diagnosed by professionals, not to mention friends, family and yourself.

I've been analyzed and tested quite a bit and had results that sound similar to yours. Very high IQ, hints of Asperger's but not enough for a diagnosis, hints of ADD but not enough for a diagnosis. More than a few (non-professional) people have insinuated that I'm somewhat of a psychopath. Officially I just have garden variety depression, but it seems like they're reconsidering actually giving me an ADD diagnosis, because I've been a "Put in bare minimum effort and complete everything very close to or past the deadline" person for my entire school life. I used to excuse it with all kinds of theories, and the professionals pretty much fueled that perspective. This year, I've come to realize that anything resembling a depression is perfectly normal because my life is shitty and boring and needs a major overhaul. I'm pretty sure my lack of executive ability when it comes to putting effort into my studies is just a combination of firstly an upbringing spent partially with my dad who has been an obese beta deadbeat for about 30 years now, and my grandmother who was very nice and caring, but overly so, as female caretakers without a male in the home tend to become. And secondly, my own bad habits, which I'm working on breaking, and having some success.

I don't think I should have any kind of diagnosis or medication really, but I'm humoring them for now, because I know that the stimulants you're medicated with when you're diagnosed with ADD are a free ticket to creating solid, healthy habits. They're not a long-term solution though, and there's no such thing as a free lunch. If you're going to be medicated, try to keep it to a year or two, tops. You don't want to permanently need stimulants to be able to just live your life.

Bottom line is, you shouldn't identify yourself with some diagnosis that makes you treat your willpower and control over your own life like it's broken and not fixable. Even if you actually should have a diagnosis, which is unlikely, you're probably better off deluding yourself that you're perfectly fine and just need to work on turning your life around. Ever seen Pinnochio? Then you know what happens to people who convince themselves that they're sick. They indulge in a lazy, instant-gratification life, and then they get fucked.

Title	borderline aspergers/odd/adhd
Author	S_0ci0path
Upvotes	1
Comments	3
Date	October 31, 2017 6:14 AM UTC (8 years ago)
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