Edit: i think im destined to be a loser. I am a selfish, reckless, and violent individual. Atleast help me leverage that into some pussy.

Look, after 2 years of reading and rereading TRP, im still a depressed, one FWB loser. (Or atleast i feel like one.)

I have hobbies, i hang with friends, I have a fwb, but im still fucked in the head. And feel angry and depressed.

I have no idea how to get new women, from college, and any women ive fucked has selected me.

I dont know how to become the selector.

With that being said, i just dont care about my life anymore. Ive given up on my "mission", my purpose, and in unstable.

I actually dont have a grand purpose, or mission. Everything is pointless. Fun, but pointless. So what if i publish a novel. I will still be "normal." Or feel indifferent.

I only feel alive and unafraid when i have the thrill of adrenaline pumping in me.

When i am walking around school, I am timid, and confident. I am able to make my whole class laugh as im witty, but when i think about talking to a girl about fucking i cant do it.

When i break the law, i feel confident smooth and in control. There is no fear.

In order to not go crazy, i drink alcohol so i calm down. When i start to have these thoughts in my head and dont drink, i go out and cause trouble.

Ive committed armed robberies before, but no one except my FWB knows. Shes seen me pull a gun on someone before.

How do i use my criminality to get other women? Should i start selling drugs and use that to fuck new girls?

Tell girls im a robber?

How can i use the fact that im a criminal psycho to get girls?

Isnt this fucking funny? Im a guy who can rob stores but doesnt know how to pick up a fucking girl.

Someone, please, help me.