My partner has endured trauma through their childhood that still haunts them. Tonight they were opening up to me and their condition gives them plunges them into incredibly dark places.

There’s nothing I can do though? Nothing I say seems to help? It’s international long distance which makes things hard already, but when they’re like this we can’t even call, they just emotionally shut down.

And it makes me feel so incredibly helpless. I feel like I’ve failed? If I can’t do that I feel completely insignificant. I’m aware I can achieve things beyond this but they mean the world to me, and having to just sit here spluttering and stuttering trying to find words that don’t exist is excruciating.

It makes me feel awful, and I don’t want to be here? I don’t want to exist as some helpless soul, because when it gets like this my existence feels minimal. I’m sorry for this rant but I need help?