So my LTR decided to go through my phone because things had been tense between us for a couple of weeks. She had an instinct and she was right because the day before I had booked a massage online with a little extra. After a little digging, she found the confirmation email and checked out the girls website. It was very obvious that it was much more than a harmless massage, I was going to cheat. Yes I know this was a very beta move and I didn't try to deny any of it. This was back in December and we had a rough week or so but talked it out and decided to stay together. She's a therapist and I agreed to seek therapy for some unresolved issues that have effected me since childhood. Well now the problem I'm having is that, even though things are good between us, she is still very worried that I'm going to cheat. I get random checks throughout the day asking what I'm doing it where I'm at. I have a trip planned next month that she's very nervous about. She's even been questioning why I go to the gym and watch my diet even though I've been health conscious since day one. Therapy helped but now I want to be done with it. My therapist basically reenforced the fact that I acted out because I was losing my identity and needed to cater to my own needs by finding hobbies and doing things that make me happy. I let her know that I probably wasn't going back and she got very upset. She started grilling me about my sessions and wanted me to convince her that I would never again act on any desires to cheat. I honestly don't want to be with anyone else and have no desire to cheat but I wouldn't have trouble finding new plates if we were to break up. That's not what I want though. The reason I decided on the massage place was so I wouldn't have to deal with the drama of a ONS or having a plate on the side, I wanted a pro to take care of my craving for strange and then to be done with it. She means a lot to me and we both add much value to each other's lives but I'm looking for a way out of this talk of cheating and therapy.

Edit:How do I get my chick to move past this? She's driving me nuts