Hi guys, as this is the first time that i am posting about my marriage. I have no clue how and where to start.

I came so often to the point to divorce, with very good reasons. But when ever i come to this point. She starts crying and blaming me and my family.

Now, i lost contact with all my friends and family have barely contact. With my mom non contact. They do not want to visit me as long as i am with her. As she was disrespectful and her family as well.

And whenever i come to this point, she starts crying and getting kinda „panic attack“ so i just start again like nothing happened. And she never ever felt to say at least „sorry“.

I think i start getting crazy. I talked to friends, family, counselor..reading so much..even with f*cking ChatGPT(!!!)

And still i feel like i am scared. And would love to say everything in details but no clue and i am just lost.. Got very good job! And everything should go better but i am just without any motivation