I used to be a happy, emotional, naive, extremely empathetic person when i met and married my husband. About a year in, i discovered he was viewing porn and lying to me about it. It totally shattered my reality as i knew it and destroyed all trust. He was extremely immature, addicted to porn and i was hurt to my core. It's been a couple years now and things are much more stable, however deep down i still do not trust him at all. After spending years trying to "fix" him, I started changing myself. I read the surrendered and empowered wife and started listening to a lot of podcasts about feminine energy. I feel like a changed woman in a lot of ways. One big issue in our marriage was that my husband was very enmeshed with his mother. His mom has always been cold to me and he would always defend her. His eyes have opened up a lot to her disrespect but it's now a topic we avoid and i am extremely low contact with her until we have to visit, then i just suck it up. The thing is- i feel like since i have stepped into my feminine energy im not longer emotionally attached to my husband. I find myself happier when he's out of the house, wanting to spend more time with my friends, and his inability to set boundaries with his mom gives me the ick. I have totally stopped tell him what to do or even sharing my big feelings with him and i just feel stuck. I'm 30 and i want a family. He is a good provider and will be able to give me and potential children a great life. We have similar interests and he's relatively a laid back guy. He takes care of me and is affectionate but i don't feel like we have that emotional connection i always wanted. I used to try so hard to cultivate it, but i just don't think he cares for it/needs it and i think his enmeshement with his mom plays a big role in why we're not able to have it. Has anyone been in the same boat?