hey guys I am disgusted to say right now I am at most blue pill shit ever and no matter how much I try I can't get over it, I keep on going for the same cycle

I am 20 and looking back I have 99% of the blue pill shit which is in the book. Everything was going fine. Till did something which RP always tells me not to do.. like someone in your workplace.

This was my first job, I joined for an internship. How irony is it did not even start as a completely blue pill but it progressed there. Actually started as fairly red pill. Saw this dumb girl who is super rich. From day one she seems to trust me. I got horny and started to touch and asked her out. She said not ready for it. Later she got interested we went out and that lead to us having a relationship. I did not have any sexual experience before. Initially what I had was to gold dig her money and use her.

We started to make out more and more I was growing addicted to her. First 3 months were horrible why? we make out and she spends a lot on me. I feel great and then the next day she breaks up with saying she is not ready and again she gets back together says she misses me. Actually, this situation got so worse her bipolar issues inside 3 months it happened like 10 times. Each time like a doormat when she wanted me back I went. This all because it was so easy for me. The first time my sexual experience. Later we both left work and currenly home studying for the degree.

That was passed, from January after 3 months she promised she wants me in her life, she loves me and will never do it again. Till now never pulled the break up thing again with next 14th it's 6 months. But that does not stop her. Things only got worse, she made me feel like "she cares and will be there for me" so whenever I feel sad I talk to her and rant and she comes to see me. She flakes like all the fucking time. Flaked even next week's plan. We fight and argue and then meet. Yesterday she said I am not her priority and she does not want to see me often becz then she will miss me more. I whine and tell I feel sad I need her now and come see me. I took her virginity last week. I am sick of this shit, but I too horny to leave since sex is easy.

No matter how many times I read the sidebar or anything I keep on going in the same cycle. Should I start somewhere else?

I am too turned on and the sexual part is keeping me from breaking the circle. I sometimes lose interesting other things I do such as hang out with male friends, gym and even watching a movie.

How to get detached from this slowly?