Note: I am working out of a rut. Therefore this has worked its way to the front of my agenda. But I have maintained this feeling even when I’m happy.

Specifically, I worked on creating a better dating profile and dressing better. I went on vacation, to Instagrammable spots, and loaded up my profiles. Now when I see these places/photos that I use to look at and think wow “these people/ their profiles look good” to “😕 I know that place.. I don’t think you look so good, now.” I also learned how to dress better. (A year of learning basic fashion, developing a style, and rebuilding my wardrobe.) Now when I go out (wearing white shoes for the first time in my life) I noticed everyone else wearing white shoes (specifically, but think broader). Everyone’s outfits look less attractive, now. And now instead of thinking everyone looks good or better than me like before, when I was wondering how to dress better, I think, oh I know why you’re wearing that and the world has lost shine.. If this isn’t enough for you, I also worked in a fine dining restaurant for awhile, and began cooking. Now, restaurants, etc., don’t impress me (as much) anymore as they used to. What do you call this? It’s like I built myself up, but everyone came down. Offer experience or advice?