I keep wishing I was dead. Women hate me and I don't hate them because it's not there fault I'm not attractive to them. To be honest I have always felt this hopeless since high school. My confidence is up but it's leading me to openly admit shit about how I wish I could go like Kurt cobain. I wish I was dead. And I admit that I wish I could be drunk all the time. I have often felt like this but now I express myself and subtly hint that I hate the world and I don't really care whether I'm part of it or not. All of these feelings just because I'm a Virgin with ADHD and social anxiety.