This is basically a little thought journaling for me to help me sleep after tripping.

So I like this girl that I met in college, she lives in a dorm near me. I find her very cute and adorable, but a random go-byer would not call her sexy.

I’m not a chad, but I’m not too unattractive either, I work out a little and try to keep clean appearance. I talk to lots of girls but I don’t end up escalating with them at all.

I have little experience with women sexually, I’ve gotten head once with the roommate of the girl I like. Buts that pretty much it.

I feel like I’m scared of doing things with a girl. Naturally so since I haven’t before.

The girl I like really likes me back to, I’m pretty sure I could sleep with her, but the thing is idk if I want to?

I’m a freshman in college so I’m meeting new girls everyday. It also helps that I’m pretty social and know a lot of people. Most people would be surprised to hear that I’m virgin. Not even because I say I’ve had sex, but they assume it.

Though I might be the overvaluing it since, once again I haven’t done it.

I like this girl and I cuddled with her yesterday, but she seems so pure. It was her first time cuddling with a guy and it showed.

I don’t often give girls attention

  1. I’m scared to escalate cause I don’t have experience

  2. I introduce myself to random women and see which one give me the most attention and enjoy that attention for myself.

The thing is even though I like this girl, I know she’s just a regular girl. She may hate me the next day and even forget about me.

If I lose my virginity to someone I feel like I’m going to be attached pretty badly.

But these are all just my thoughts My goal is to lean out to a reasonable 13-14% bf to show abs And be at 170-180

Im at 17ish bf

I just wish I had someone to talk to while tripping tbh

TLDR: If you have any advice for me on how not to be a complete loser, plz help.