For example this gorgeous girl has made it blatantly obvious that she’s interested, and still I’m still scared ill be awkward and mess it up, when ive tried to walk up to her my brain starts making excuses to stop and i listen to it, i have one more day until the prom ticket deadline and i really want to go. In the moment i just need to push through the fear and do it, so i cant practice for months. Im at the lowest moment of my life right now, since she was more man than me, because she actually tried to talk to me once(complimented me my while i walked past her).

Ive stayed in my shell all throughout my life and its coming back to bite me, every time ive been with a girl is when they’ve talked to me first. Im such a loser and i deserve to be alone for the rest of my senior year, after how many times shes shown interest and i haven’t done anything. After every day that i don’t do anything i feel my mental state has deteriorated greatly.

When I’m walking up to her it feels like an invisible wall stopping me from getting closer, i need to push past it but i cant.