Im 23, I moved to a new city 6 months ago and I feel like I really messed up. I haven't been able to recover financially after a roommate split and I'm completely broke. I was working for 5 mo at the first job I could get that paid min wage, and I stayed way too long without looking for other options. I quit a month ago, had a job lined up after but they keep telling me a later start date so now I don't know when I'm starting.

I don't feel attractive to women at all, I feel insecure because I'm broke, have acne scars/ skin issues, no purpose, not as muscular yet, even though I've been at the gym and working hard, I haven't had enough money to bulk. I feel extremely confident when things are going well, but things have been going downhill despite my effort. I've been hustling to stay afloat, reselling/fixing consoles and selling plasma, but it all feels so pointless because I'm still broke. My only purpose is to survive right now and I don't even feel alive, last night I thought about suicide. I feel like I'm just spinning my wheels going nowhere.