So basically i was talking to a girl that really like now I obviously I'm not talking to her due to her shutting me down due to my idiocy .so let me get it from the beginning I met a girl that was working at a gas station and I got her FB profile I added her and after some time she accepted me we started talking I got attached to her and we had good convos until this Saturday I had a gathering of friends in my house and she showd me signs of jealousy I liked that and we talked for a hour on video calls you after some time we closed the videochat she called me while I had friends over she heard female voices and started showing again signs of jealousy and when my female best friend showed out of nowhere she felt kinda awkward anyways Sunday comes up we had plans going out and I started offering her picking her from her work and then leaving her at home I got declined telling me she would be dropped off by her boss (which it bothered me). After I asked what about our plan for going she also declined it said she would go later on with her cousin to a club Wich she had a long time not seen well I wouldn't stay home I went out with my 2 female best friends and and the cousin of my best friend and took a story with bcs she is a nice looking girl and I wanted to see her reaction the girl I was interested saw the pic and asked me who was I told her the truth but she didn't believe me she was distant the same thing as Monday cold and distant and I again (now that I think I feel really stupid writing it ) I posted a story again with her without thinking the aftermath she didn't see it yesterday she saw it today morning and reacted with hahaha she left my message on read and I started a Convo again I could see from her replys she was angry after some messages trying her to tell me why she was angry I got nothing instead she told me I became alienated and waves me goodbye after realizing how deep I was I told her I was sorry and asked her if I could meet her but insta shot me down and now I'm left on unread she's all the time active and I'm stuck in a cycle hating my self and not knowing what to do I don't want to lose her I can't say I love her without even going properly out with her but I can't say she is nothing for me if I can do something just to make things right I would feel so much better bcs thinking of her got me loving her wish she could just read what I'm feeling of her ... Any help or opinion is appreciated and sorry if this is not following the rules I'll delete it