Hi,

Posting this from a lot of frustration and sadness. I have been seeking a CS degree and in junior year in a prestigious university. I have a job to provide my academics and daily life. I often come in media too for my innovations and contest winnings. But I always keep things extremely subtle. My parents don't know about my job. My close friends also barely notice me in the media (newspapers and magazine to be precise).

I have a girlfriend, a lot of friends, girls and boys.

But recently, nobody seem to be interested in me. I am not a kind of guy who loves to stay in the center of attraction. I love to be subtle, treated as a normal decent guy in my real life. Yes sometimes I get exposed for my works and people seem to praise me for those, but I hate that and leave the place ASAP as that makes me uncomfortable.

Recently, my girlfriend don't seem to give me enough time. I get stressed at the end of the day due to my work. I want her attention badly. I also love my friends, whenever I call them, they seem to be extremely busy and can't make time even after 4-5 months. Not going to talk about my other female friends because whatever I do, they claim that I am behaving like a "boyfriend' where I do the same thing for my bros too. I hate to be that flirting creep. So I keep it very short with them.

My close friends and my girlfriend are the people I do things and thrive for. My girlfriend seem to be extremely busy 24/7 and gets too bored whenever I start talking to her. Even if I ask her how was her day, she says that it's cringe. Even when we meet, she is extremely busy with facebook and other apps looking for things to buy.

My friends weirdly ignore me. They seem to be very annoyed at me. I went to a vacation at a distant place, a friend(f) of mine lives there. I told her I came here so if we could meet. She vanished into thin air and did not even sent a single message.

I don't want to lose them. I love to live with as less person as possible. They are the happiness to me. But their behavior, especially my girlfriend's behavior is hurting me a lot and I feel down for 24/7. I admit everyone have their own business. But sending a message takes 2-3 seconds. If I can make an effort to reach them, is it too hard to send me atleast a single message in two days?

As everyone is somewhat avoiding me, so there is a problem with me, not with them. Am I expecting too much?

How can I be happy again and gain my confidence back?