Just a little background before we begin, i am a 22 y/o male that has never had sex. At this point in my life, all i want to do is hang out and be with women. I don't care if i end up having a girlfriend, or a fuck buddy, or anything i really don't care, i just want to be with women. I attract many types of women, ugly ones, fat ones, hot, sexy you name it. It drives me fucking insane to see really hot girls checking me out, it makes me really self conscious, and the fact that i'm a virgin doesn't help. When ugly girls check me out, i don't mind it still makes me feel good but i feel like shit inside cause i am literally not attracted to those women, and i would never get with them, but its like i would really want to just pop my cherry with them so i am torn. Sucks ass and i have to idea what to do.

Anyways so there is this girl i have been going out with for at least 3-4 dates. I pick her up, and ooohh man she looks fine as hell, i get sprung way too easily but i still keep calm and cool the entire time. The times before i went out with her we just sort of made-out, nothing too special, but this time i really wanted to go all the way. So we end up going from her place to the parking lot of the club we are about to enter. We have about 30 minutes before we have to actually go in (we were meeting friends) and so we just sort of talk about shit. This is when i open up to her and tell her everything. I tell her that i am a virgin and i am nervous about the whole thing, she tells me that she is just as nervous but kind of denies me sex in the process. She then says that she is not a one-night stand, and that sex to her is a special and sacred experience, and at this point i get really confused, all i want to do is just get physical with her and she gets all defensive. At this point i get really angry, so i just go in and kiss her. The kiss was pretty bad but she kind of froze, and it made her really nervous. I guess she doesn't know how to deal with a virgin. So the entire night at the club she kept a distance from me, i tried to get her close to me but she wasn't having it. I ask her whats wrong, she just comes up with excuses like "oh i am so tired" and "i am really hungry lets get something to eat". So anyways we leave the club b/c she wanted to go, and we eat some food and we decide to call it a night. This is where the night was a failure for me, i get out of the car to hug her goodbye, she then says "good luck" and all this bull crap lets be "friends". I SHOULD have just said fuck that and tell her i wanted to be more than just friends, but i was really caught off guard and we decide that we will just stay friends. I tell her to keep in touch with me, and she ways yea lets hangout soon, i see her walk home and the last thing she says is "text me".

I couldn't even sleep last night, i was so fucking angry with myself. I just got friend zoned but i don't even know if she really did it cause i opened up to her. I don't know what scheme she is pulling, i hope she is not playing hard to get or whatever. I have always had terrible experiences with women, ALWAYS. Even during high school i would attract the girls fairly easy but i was such a SAP and always too nervous. I have so much anxiety because i feel like i can't be with women, like everything i do in life goes opposite to what i need to do in order to be with women.

sigh, anyways i have another date tomorrow with this really cute girl i met at work. She is a bit young but super cool and i really want to hit it off with her. Any advice on how to go about this date without being such a nervous wreck? My virginity is overshadowing me and i feel helpless :(