Before I begin I just want to let everyone know that I've been a lurker on seddit for quite some time (8 months at least). And I just want to thank everyone who have ever post something that I've read to get me this far tonight, Thank you.

Long story short, the girl I thought was "the one" told me she've moved on and its been somewhat difficult for me to dealt with, but my friends are amazing and they help me so much by getting me out into the social life as well as get me out of my comfort zone. I've been doing a lot of inner game, I aspire to be the best aesthetic bodybuilder in the world so I lift 7 days a week, I've been reading a lot, doing meditation, working on how to be the best version of myself, but never really do any field work because I got no balls. Now you know the background here is my story.....

I'm a senior in college, the Thursday night at my university is mug night. I went out with a friend who've been consistently there for me to improve my social game. To be honest, I'm horrible at this because I've had girlfriends from freshman year into junior year that I have no clue how to even talk to girls. These girls basically took the lead in the relationships I've been in so I'm very afraid to talk to girls.

I've been doing /r/nofap for about almost 2 weeks now and hear about all the "superpower" you get from it, I'm here to tell you that I don't know if its true, but I feel like I got the super power tonight. I did quite a bit of sidebar reading of seddit tonight and get myself in the state before I went out. Some of the things I focused on was:

  • I'm enough and I have a lot of value to offer
  • I'm good looking and have a great body
  • I'm here to have as much fun as possible with my friends instead of picking up and finding girls

So starting out pre-gaming, I introduce myself to everyone that was at the pregame and had some good laugh and can tell I'm in an amazing state to begin the night with. We went out to the first bar, simple, just having a few drinks and play some pool, and talked to some of the people I know at the bar. Still in a really good state because of all the great inner game tips from seddit. Got to the first bar, I had text a girl to meet me there, but once arriving I just simple said hi, had a good conversation, and moved on with my nights of having fun with my friends.

I could not believe the amount of people I knew at the bar and all of the sudden it seems like I knew everyone that was there. I start talking, having a good time with friends, and even talked to lots of hot female friend I had there (I literally couldn't get myself to talk to them in real life because of some stupid reason I didn't even know).

So now you see, focusing on those three things I stated previously, I get myself to another level, I wasn't looking, I wasn't trying, I was focusing on me and my friends for having a good night. People enjoy the conversation with me and I never thought that was possible before tonight.

We moved on to another bar and there I meet some of my other friends and had a great time hanging out with them. Now here is when the story gets awesome. We moved to the last bar and its a bar known for having the best dance floor around. I'm still focusing on the same thing I said previous and really be happy with who I am. I saw some more friends there and chatted, the whole night my energy level is just high.

And then we got close to the dance floor and I told my friend jokingly that I'm going to tell this beautiful black girl next to me that she is looking stunning tonight. He dare me and told me I wouldn't do it. Now you have to know when this happened in the past, I usually tell myself he is right and then be sad with my life. But tonight, I don't know what came over me. I do not know if its the power of nofap, or I'm just fed up with being mediocre with girls, but I actually tap on the girl's shoulder and told her you look awesome tonight and then went back to talking to my friends. That easy. It literally blow my mind what I just did and I cannot believe I did it. But then I was like since I'm already this far, why not have a conversation with her. This leads to her dancing and grinding on me and her friend switching with her to dance with me as well. Now at this point my mind is blown. Is it really this easy? I asked myself. I gather myself and saw this beautiful petite asian girl, and once again, I do not know what came over me, but we made eye contact and I told her she look amazing tonight, she begin to feel me up, lift up my shirt, give me compliments about my abs and showing her friend (I never thought this is even a thing) and from that point on we were just dancing, holding hands and I literally cannot believe what happened tonight. There are so many emotions going through me right now but the only thing I can think about right now is how grateful I am.

I've came a long way, going from someone who is needy and always outcome dependent to now, where I just want to do whatever it is and not think so much afterwards but just focusing on my growth. I love this feeling and love this adventure that I'm about to begin. I really only took a tiny step tonight like I said, but to me this is the most amazing I've ever felt, all the work, all the hours of being the best version of myself all paid off tonight. There was no #-close, kiss close. But to me this is just such an amazing adventure that I want to share with everyone here who is lost hope.

I've been a skinny Asian man my whole life, I weight about 100 lbs three years ago to now where I'm 150 lbs, in the best shape of my life, and having girls lifting up my shirt and lick my abs. I've came a long long way, and I don't want to drag on this post. But thank you so much for reading, but if you guys want to hear more please let me know, I'm happy to share more. You guys are the best. Seriously, the best.