i capped off a day of heavy drinking in chicago last night by going to DJ sasha at the Mid. I was too tired to really do any game, but physically i knew I looked the fucking part. I had some sweet shutter shades i won earlier from drinking with some chicks, nice coat, and green beads.

This was the first night out in my life where I noticed the amount of people who were either checking me out or partaking in my 'state'.

Highlights of the night

  • I'm a bit clumsy and I trip on a barricade while in line, bouncer comes over, thinks i'm drunk, but after some small talk, i make him laugh, and get fast tracked inside.

  • Once inside, somehow I am able to bypass the entire bar queue, female bartender immediately turns to me and gets my order. Move away after tipping, see the classmate I was going to meet up, hug, turn, see she has a boyfriend, we do intros, and I kinda realize Ill probably be better if I'm not hanging around them.

  • photog chick with dslr takes a direct shot of me when I'm not looking, I see the flash and her turning to a friend and I see my face on the lcd. I smile, wave, she laughs and waves back and takes another shot.

  • Start dancing like 5 people from the stage, lots of cute girls keep eye fucking me and making eye contact. I smile, but I'm really not in the mood to pursue - got a nice thing going with a girl I really like, and I'm just too into the music to care about women at the moment.

  • I go to the washroom, come out, some HB9 is standing there, her boyfriend walks past me. I start walk out of the hallway, notice her, she notices me and i can tell she did a palable double take. and she she proceeds to shamelessly and thoroughly EYEFUCK the SHIT OUT OF ME. I have never felt so pleasantly violated in my life. needless to say, that got my state up even more than it already was. Breeze past her with a smile playing on my lips, and go back to the dance floor.

  • numerous times during the night, girls reached in and tried to take my shades as they passed. The first time it was funny and I responded. Soon I could just sense when it was about to happen, and just casually turned my head away. I guess the way I did it looked really cool/ arrogant, because they would usually laugh and try to engage me and try to grab them again. I'd been getting compliments on my glasses all night, but at some point these attempts just started to annoy me because I was enjoying the music.

  • Near the end of the night, I was getting tired, So i went to the second floor, got a water, and perched on the balcony railing. I was tired, but still felt pretty in state. The railing was relatively empty at this point, but not once, but three sets of women, usually hb8-9s perched Directly next to me. first time it was two, they mimicked my body language, I turned and smiled, and saw one of them eyfuck. Second was a single chick on my other side near the pillar, and the last one was a mixed set, but they again stood right next to me. If I was single and less tired, could I have interpreted their proximity as an invitation to open the sets?

Why i feel the need to say all this is that all of these things were a new feeling, a new experience. I've never been physically attractive, i'm a bit overweight, but even tonight i was dressed pretty casually. I must have just presented an aura of not giving a single fuck. I also think the shades played a part. I'm going back next weekend for another show, so I'll expreiment and try some game then.