Took a colleague, Jane, on a date on Monday, asked her out that afternoon. Admittedly a relationship kind of date, to see a band. I kino'd during the show, more and more. Drinks, banter, messing around, laughing, eye contact. More kino. Fixing her hair for her, DHV's, qualification etc. But I hadn't even kissed her by the time we took the taxi home. The reason is that I was going from a purely professional relationship with her into a sexual one and so it felt like quite a barrier to push through.

In the taxi home, she blah blah blahed about other guys she had been seeing. That was my cue. I took it, we kissed, I increased the kino, face, neck, ear, tits. Back to hers and she stopped me at her door. I was working in about five hours anyway so went home. Kind of LMR but not. But going from never being sexual at work for fear of ending up in HR to straight away escalating up the scale, I think I did alright.

I gave it three days, then asked her out for drinks that night, date 2. She wasn't sure if she could make it but offered the next day. I took it to mean she was waiting for someone else to get back to her to meet. Okay fine, she's a free agent, she can do what she wants.

So I meet her last night. Immediately the bitch shield is up. I try to kiss, she pulls away. I don't really care, I kiss her anyway. Her breath was bad. Great, it's like knocking a wooden door down with a brick. We get in the bar, sit and then come the questions. Like a job interview. "when did you know you liked me?" and all that nonsense. "Why now? what's changed that you ask me now?" I give silly answers "8.42PM last Thursday. It came to me in a vision". I escalated again, but more resistance. The talk was awkward and punctuated with more and more silence. Obviously I was under scrutiny. Maybe I was simply moving too fast.

I push-pulled with convo between compliments and gentle insults. "Do you think I'm stupid?" she said out of nowhere, "Yeh, sometimes...I used to laugh with other colleague* oh look Jane fucked up the accounts again" **laughter laughter Then more of the questions. She was on the defense and suspicious. She told me she wanted to go slow because we're colleagues and she doesn't want to make a mistake. It was bumming me out to be honest and I was looking at the clock and the exit.

By the third drink I had kino escalated so that she was kissing me. But still it was like pulling teeth. Massive resistance. And again, it was back to talking about exes and some other guys on the scene. So as soon as she began mentioning their name, I clapped my hands(Pavlov, anyone?) and said "Okay, let's go" and I walked her to the train station round the corner. She tried to kiss me, put her arms around me and I gave her my cheek and said 'let's go slow' (what she said earlier) or something close to that and squeezed her hand. She knew she had crossed a line with me. She forced a grin and said goodnight.

Now, no doubt I pushed too much too soon. But Chad would have done the same. My question really is what happened? What do you RP guys see? I thought we were getting comfortable. I'm not sure.

edit: never mind about shitting where I eat. This is a throwaway job that I wont be in by Christmas.