TL;DR I am 20 and haven’t had GF/female friend since primary school. TALKING to woman seems impossible to me, idk if am psychopatch, depressed or just pussy. I am on the edge. Men, help.

  1. My story. - you can skip and come back if you will be willing to
  2. The problem.

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  1. Since my childhood I was always very shy, even wishing happy borthday to my cousins used to be a big deal for me. I was brought up by my mother who is strict catholic and my father was alcoholic skrrt bang I was very stressed when I had to meet new people. I didn’t have this problem with kids from my school/area whom I knew. I had a few female friends but never anything more than friend (imho my 2/10 face at this time had impact on it) then I lost my best friend and that made me more anxious.

Then for next 3-4 years I was rarely going out of home and talking to anyone at school, had only 2-3 male friends and used to spend most of my time playing games/watching porn and fapping. No contact with any female. One advantage is that I was attending a gym since 14 yo.

High school time was a big milestone in my life. I started to read tons of self-improvent stuff, successful people stories and pick-up forums. My father stopped drinking, founded me braces, I went to barber and my face improved from 2/10 to 6-7. I was also most jacked dude in my HS and not to short - 6,2” sounds great? Not really. I made a lot of male friends I have other male respect - they know that I can smash them with literally one uppercat if I want to and I see that they just like me. Its some kind of social proof but still I was talking only to 2-3 girls and only as a friend at school. I was invited to my homies parties many times, I was having fun with them but never talked to a girl - also no girl has shown her interest to me even if I have physicall „alpha” features and fellas respect me af. One time my friend accidentaly send to his female friend a photo of me sitting in slipper and she repilied: „wow what a hot body” lol I thought that I know attraction rules like: dont give a fuck, dont show to many interest, show that you have other options, body language too - I do it all but it doesnt work in my case.

  1. Now the main point: I cannot approach any girl because I do not know how to talk to them. I have many nerdy interests, I like to talk about politics, history, tech etc. From my perspective girls are less intelligent and care only about parties, social media and makeup. I feel like I cannot satisfy myself intelectually with any woman and I need them only to hang out sometimes, watch a movie and fvck all nigt long because I fell strong sexual tension. I am afraid that if I would tell a girl what am interested in, she would reply that I am a boring sucker. I know that ist hard to talk about geopolitics on parties but I also dont know how to have fun with girls. My conversation with girl would looks like: -Hey, am 20 and like new technologies what are u doin here?

I dont know how to joke and be spontanious until I know the person well.

Now I am going to college to much bigger city and I want to start well and finally get laid like a lot of you guys do. I feel like I can satisfy them sexually like no dude will do because of my physicall condition but how to create the ocassion? am a real weirdo