I went out with this Malaysian girl tonight to a dancing bar. It's a bit complex with her, because she is in my senior design group for the engineering. Anyway, we have hung out couple times before, going to dance floor and grind. Today it was just me and her. I took this as a chance. When we dance together, she hangs tight on me and dance crazy... She doesn't mind me touching her butt, leg... She likes to have a full contact of frontal body to my frontal body as in belly+chest rub. So I always thought there was some chemistry. I tried to escalate by tell her to look at me while dancing(she usually doesn't), and touched back of her neck. and got into kiss personal space by both of us forehead touching. We chat and I grabbed her neck to pull her in, but she kept look away.. so I said "I'm really trying hard not to kiss you." maybe that was a faulty line. she just laughed and try to avoid by saying the song is good and other boring stuff, but I didn't stop.. I said "let's kiss." she laughed but she was keep avoiding. She was smiling and kept dancing usual, so I didn't think that she didn't like me. She finally offered me to kiss on her cheek, but I refused and said "you are lame."
and we kept danced and came out to drink some water. and I told her "Then, we should go on a date." she agreed and i told her that I will call her later. We danced more, and she told me "we should come more often here, blah blah..."
and we went home. I think whether or not I date her, it would not be successful because the whole trying to kiss thing made it awkward. Also, going home part was really lame. We came out of the bar and she said "okay you go that way I go this way. bye." no escalation for next time whatsoever.
What did I do wrong? and How should I proceed from now?, I came home and realize I don't want to be in any relationship. and I guess it will be not awkward as long as I think it is not awkward.. right?
there doesn't seem to be anything here