Ok, so this is my first FR, hopefully I can be thorough/concise. This may or not be useful to any AFC's who are recently broken up and/or who feel like they'll never get the girls they want.

Background: Broke up with my ex a few weeks ago. We're still trying to get over seeing each other flirting with the other gender.

Report: Okay, so I'm pretty drunk. I'll skip all the useless stuff, played quarters, milled around, etc. So then a bit later on in the night I see a friend of mine with this girl I've had eyes on for a while. I haven't been able to find her anywhere, so of course he spots her first. Try to brush it off but it hurts a bit. Look around, see my ex talking with guys, try to brush it off get more angry and hurt. This is a college bar setting so there's an abundance of alcohol. I proceed to start slamming drinks and continue to play quarters a bit. It appears at this point every friend I can see is with a girl (2 of them with girls that I've been wanting to game). So I see my ex hitting on guys again, people I know (we had an agreement none of that), eventually just get so pissed I go outside to leave and smoke a cigarette before I do. She leaves with a guy, get pissed more and decide to stay since at least I won't have to deal with her she is main reason I stayed. Okay, so now I'm pretty fucking drunk. My goal was to throw-up, somehow I missed that mark but just barely. I think this is a good choice for me because I can seem sober while extremely intoxicated but I just need that extra destruction of inhibition point. Anyways, I see an HB6 maybe even 5, though I would probably stick with 6. As my recollection goes, I went up and said "hi", and then she asked my name which surprised me so I asked hers obviously. Exchanged general info, where from, majors, etc. and then I said "I feel like people always ask each other the same boring questions" and she was like yeah. Memories kind of fuzzy from there, kept hanging out around her we danced a bit point, kept trying to talk (it was stupidly loud) and then I asked her if she wanted to leave so we could actually talk and she said yes, but not to expect anything point.

So I'll fast forward a bit, just doing some gaming with her then eventually went back to her room area but we didnt go in. I k-closed, for some reason I thought she had my number, kind of kicking myself that I actually forgot to #-close though, she had her phone out for a bit. Anyways we talked, were kind of physical for a bit and then a mutual friend came and she took that moment to leave. So does he. So do I. At this point I'm behind him and then he's just like "yo dude, sorry about this but she just booty called me." He turns around and goes back to her room. At this point I'm fucking livid, this guy also earlier in the night asked me if my ex was on the market.

So here's what I learned:

  • Don't drink too much unless you are experienced; off of three coronas I noticed that I was a lot more social with people I knew than I would have normally been. On a scale of 1-10 on the introverted/non social scale I'm about a 4-5. I was drinking to get black out but I am also quite used to being inebriated

  • Just try, even if you get shot down that girl you want to fuck is going to get fucked by someone else. It's a competition, sex is a commodity, a resource, and everyone wants it. Be comfortable about it, don't put it on a pedestal - it's more like water or orange juice than gold. But try to get it, and this brings me to another point.

  • Don't be angry about other people hooking up with girls you want. This is something I still need to get over, and I'm still angry so I'm being sort of hypocritical right now but the problem is I have some long standing issues with rejection, anger, insecurity, and jealousy (which all make gaming so easy yay!) to it's like god wanted to take a shit in my mouth. At any rate, even if you're going to be angry about it later try to get it out of your mind. It's just going to make gaming harder - impossible.

  • Escalate quickly. It really does matter. Be the one to make her want dick and do it quick.

  • Always #-close

Still kind of pissed and hungover so hopefully this was coherent and helpful. Peace