Good afternoon Seddit, as I turn 19 today I want to reflect back on the past year particularly because it was one great value and experience in my life thus far. I also hope some of you might be able to get some value out of my experiences and if at least one person does then that makes me happy.

Lets begin in August of 2011, off to college the start of a new school, a new chapter in life, new people and most of all a new beginning. Now, not being the most popular one and known generally for having a really hot twin sister in high school, college was a much anticipated start of a new me. I had convinced myself that I could change the type of person I was and evolve into this cool seductive playboy overnight.

Spending an entire summer searching pickup forums and watching seductive videos tends to get you a little bit carried away and motivated. Not necessarily a bad thing, but when you start to expect girls and results you begin to play with fire. Having never developed an identity in high school I found myself stricken with anxiety and putting to much importance on what other thought of me, epecially girls. Hands down this was my number one mistake, if pickup has taught me one thing it is NEVER VALUE OTHERS MORE THAN YOU VALUE YOURSELF. This path is one that leads to anger and hatred.

I was at a Point where I was going to parties and bars 3 nights a week attempting to seduce girls with crazy tricks and fun games (at this point my game was based off "the game" ) which brought me some success but eventually I still felt the same loneliness I had started with.

At the start I found myself having a decent amount of hookups, however in a hormone orgy of clusterfuckdom and sexual experimentation this was not out of the ordinary. What the real challenge came down to was how I could obtain the girls I really wanted, you know, the ones who you get nervous around, the ones who make you feel like you've lost all control of your bowel movements. The girls like Susan.

Who was Susan you ask ? Basically Susan was the "correction" the one that not only pulled me back to reality but slammed me into its concrete flooring. She was the realization that when it came to the ones I really desired I broke all the rules and I let my emotions lose before I even got into a sexual relationship with a girl. I am a business major so let me put this in a way that I see fit.Seduction and Business might be two completely different entities but they both follow the same golden rule " Never let emotions get in the way of clear thinking and NEVER i mean NEVER let emotions blindly navigate your actions. That is what I did with Susan, I came off as needy, unattractive and mostly just an emotional whore.

Feeling rejected I started to stray from pickup for a while basically blaming the girls who rejected me for being "bitches" or "sluts" when in reality I was angry at myself for not being "good enough". I start to lose hope and started believing ideas like " maybe Im not good looking enough" or "Girls only like assholes".

But the real problem was I valued her as a person much more than I valued myself and trapped myself into a friendzone of no escape. Our friendship continued for a while but after a point in time I cut her lose because of the reminder she was to me.However without Susan I would have never found my mistakes and fixed them.

After Susan I began to delve into not only natural game, but philosophy and how we as people or more importantly as men should live our lives. Ultimately this leads to finding peace within yourself and who you are. You begin to create an identity for yourself and act consciously towards becoming your ideal person. You will quickly find that living your life this way attracts many women. Stand up for your beliefs regardless of what other think, this is part of being a man.

After this point I started to attract girls I truly could see myself growing as a person with,however my journey has still just begun. I know I will fail over and over and I might not ever even reach the mountaintop but I sure as hell will try to every damn day of my life. It is time I put an end to my rambling but I still have much much more to learn and experience ,however one thing is for sure Seduction has pointed me in the right direction to becoming my ideal self

In closing I would like to put a couple of the most important lessons I learned In the past year in no specific order. Enjoy

  1. Never value others more than you value yourself
  2. Everyday act towards achieving your goals. Every once in a while stop and say to yourself "is how im living my life right now moving in the direction of my goals?" if not adjust your lifestyle at any costs. 3.Have strong beliefs and do not compromise them for anyone. 4.You don't NEED a women to make you happy, happiness can be found everywhere
  3. Truly believing in yourself and having others truly love and care for you is one of the greatest feelings in the world.
  4. Never give up,keep moving through the trenches and working hard.Sometimes you will fail BADLY, but it takes someone strong to get up from that and continue on their path.