I'm in my first LTR since taking TRP and would like people's opinions on cuddling and physical affections like hand holding, back/neck rubs, spooning, and all of that stuff.

On the one hand I do enjoy this stuff, but on the other hand I can't picture any of my RP rolemodels, like my war-vet grandfather or the men of Mad Men, doing very many of these things.

Sometimes she will just put her hand on top of mine while we're sitting on the couch or in bed and the times that I reciprocate and hold her hand back it feels like I failed a shit test.

I try to sexualize these things as much as I can by resting my hand on her tits or ass and just casually copping feels whenever possible. The only way I can feel masculine while spooning is by holding her tits.

What are your thoughts?