I hate failing. I felt like a failure for 5 years of my life and I don't wanna feel like that anymore. I am a perfectionist, I almost never fail because I don't do things that challenge me but when I do and I fail I come home and think of how worthless I am. Reading trp since November of 2017. I improved a lot. But I still haven't approached a girl. I feel that if I approach before being perfect she will just reject me and all my friends will make fun of me. And my brain know that that is bs, I know that I am just finding an excuse but I really feel like I can't afford to fail or I will lose everything. So basically I want to know how to believe in/accept myself without relying on external things/achievement so that after failing I can still think that I am a good human being and that is normal to fail sometimes. I am 18.