its been many years since i came to trp for anything, i started coming over here since i was 16/17, im in my early twenties.

Me and her bonded emotionally very deeply, I see her as my best friend, but she wanted to control me, and she couldnt trust me even though i never cheated on her and never tried.

I want the best for her, but it was just too much, things were getting extremely out of hand, both of us were getting hurt on a constant basis.

After trying to break up with her 2 or 3 times, today it actually happened, and i feel nauseated, it was the best to do, but the feeling of loss and knowing that i hurt her is deeply troubling me.

had things gone differently maybe i wouldve built a life with her, but she wasnt doing me any good and enither was i to her, maybe due to the fact that we both had mental issues and thats not a good combination.

I dont know how i should feel about this, and i dont have enough of a support system which is why i came here.

I come for advice but i dont know how to ask it, i dont know whats going on with my head, this is so weird