I know, it's a really common term to use but ill just divide this into 2 parts. Crash, and you guessed it, burn.

The crash: so I didn't take Adderall today because my prescription ran out and I didn't pick the new one up. I use it like I'm supposed to, I'm legitimately prescribed it, etc etc. With that out of the way, you'll still go through withdrawal without it. Basically I felt like I had the flu without the sniffles or cough. Biggest thing though was being really tired and out of it, no motivation and fairly depressed in general. Anyways, decided that I should still try.

The Burn: This went all day long. First class of the day, girl I usually sit next to makes small chit chat and comments. I really didn't have it together so I replied pretty averagely instead of seizing the opportunity to move it places.

Second class, sit around in the far back corner killing time between surfing the web, taking notes, daydreaming and zoning out.

Lunch, call into work sick because by this time I'm fairly downhill. Cold sweat, anxiety, mild paranoia, all that. Just hanging out with my buddy like usual. Told him yesterday that I intended to basically cold approach a girl in our next class and try to #close.

Third class, walking over there with my buddy. Show up early and wait outside the lecture hall. She shows up with her friend, my brain is moving through molasses, no go. Walk into class and try to sit next to her, doesn't work. End up in the row behind. Nothing happens. Nothing after class either.

After school my buddy and I go into the main plaza to hear some crazy religious people argue and yell for the lolz. Standing around, notice HB9 a few yards to my left. Friend and I are making witty comments and cracking jokes amongst ourselves. I start sayin stuff loud enough to see what she does. Make occasional eye contact, smile, she laughs at my comments every now and then. Decide fuck it, approach.

*remember I am definitely not at my peak thinking power here

Me- "Havin fun?" "Yeah (kinda laughs as she says it)" "Sooo, guess we're all goin to Hell huh?" "Yeah pretty much" "Man that kinda ruins my Wednesday" Anyways, stupid awkward conversation vaguely follows, a lot of awkward pauses and phone checking follows. I'm basically stuck at this point, I can't think of a way to recover, and can't find a solid way to retreat. Wait around, one of her friends shows up, I make my exit. My buddy sorta gives me shit over it in a friend way.

So...I tried searching this question last night and phrasing it different ways but.. How do you psych yourself up or get energy? I know some days ill randomly have a lot more energy and be outgoing, cool, calm, quick thinking, all that. Today (and other times) ill have no desire to do anything or talk to anyone.