So I had an interesting night a few days ago. This lady I have been talking to for a while invites me over and I was like 10mins away at the time so I told her if she made it worth my while I would show up, she promised she would.

So I meet her, we talk, smoke and I have learned a lot of body language and just being in a relaxed and confident state. So we sit down and watch some tv, it was White Collar, that Neil is really damn good at dressing and game (this comes into the conversation later). So eventually I turn to her, look her in the eye and say "Well it certainly hasn't been worth my while yet." She has been sizing me up the whole night and trying to "figure me out." So this leads to her sitting on top of me and making out with me. I make fun of her belly because I am learning to say what comes to my mind with no fucks given. Here I realize I screw up as she says I kiss weird and she isn't feeling it. As she says this I push away and just watch the TV, basically punish her. I was in an excited state but try to keep control. She tries again, we make out, I pull on her hair and pull her in, kiss her neck several times and again she starts talking so I push her away and watch TV. Eventually she leaves to "get a drink." I sit back, grab a book on her shelf and notice it is in french. Comment on it and make fun of her because she doesn't know french. Eventually leads me to her bed, I get a hj, I admitted I had never gotten a bj actually and her eyes light up from the honesty. Still don't get what I really wanted which was the bj, her excuse was like I would screw you up for all other girls and I was like that's fine with me.

Game Critque So end of the night we are just chatting and she ends up critiquing my game. She says she loved my swagger/confidence walking in and smoking/chatting with her nonchalantly. She thought my not giving a fuck attitude was interesting and was impressed that when she walked away I didn't do anything besides just chill out. She loved that I wore good clothes that fit and was into style. I was told I was very alpha male to her, not really complementing though, dominating the situation, honesty and very Bond like as we were discussing movies and tv.

Summary I was told I was very alpha male and sexy in looks and in a rough and rugged way. Which I love cause that's how I think men should be and just finished reading No More Mr. Nice Guy ( my biggest problem still working on overcoming ). She loved that I actually said something about her weight and didn't try to avoid it and just said my thoughts but continued on. But she said I shouldn't have turned 180 degrees from the old me. I didn't have any charming aspects and my kissing was strange, later learn that I think I didn't kino enough with her and build enough rapport. She said if I had charm like someone like Neil from White Collar I would destroy. Sooo...

Advice Needed I realized I have changed a lot in my ways as I am still trying to find the best of me so I am trying out a lot of traits and personality mixes. I personally have looked up to people like Bond and old school men ( Listen to a lot of blues, into suits, so on ), where it is Alpha, masculine, integrity and confidence, rugged and rough. I have tried a lot of things but how do I find charm? Was I considered not charming because I just didn't really compliment and kino or is there another factor I am missing from my past personality that I haven't brought out and amplified?

Orr is she just a different type of women that doesn't like an Alpha Male, I wouldn't mind having more charm in general, I used to cower away in arguments and confrontations and now I take them head on and challenge people who disrespect me. Is there a balance I haven't striken yet?

PS she was wayyy older than me so that could have had something to do with it haha.