Background

Lately I've been feeling hopeless. Quick background - 24, recently out of college and self-employed. A couple friends but that's about it. Zero girls in my life right now.

Had a serious GF in college whom i lost my virginity to, dated from about 18-20 before I ended it. Had a couple random drunk hookups with a couple 6s and a 7. So I'm not a total virgin incel, but college was very underwhelming for me. I have a very high sex drive and missing out on all these opportunities started to eat away at me. I tried to join a fraternity my junior year (kinda late to the party) but didn't get a bid. My school had a very competitive frat scene with a less than 15% bid rate, but it still was a real blow to my ego.

Towards the end of college, I decided to try to get girls via the internet. I knew I needed to have really good photos to compete, so I started with that. The problem was, I just couldn't find take any pictures I was happy with, and it really started fucking with my ego. One thing led to another, and I ended up on the Lookism website. Posted some pics of myself, got rated around a 5. After this I decided to not even try online/tinder. Fast forward about a year of fucking around and ignoring my issues and here we are. Now I want to do something about this and get my shit straightened out.

 

Question

I understand that there is truth in this whole blackpill looks theory shit. Obviously women want a good looking man, just as we would want a good looking woman. My question is, what is the best way to get past this and start enjoying my life? I just want to be able to have a fulfilling life with attractive women.

But right now, the loneliness is crushing. I'm trying so hard to get out of this rut, I just cut all junk food, started eating clean, and picked up a strength training routine. But this nagging belief that I'll never make it because of an unchangeable skull is really eating away at me. I've always been a perfectionist so the fact that I feel like I'm hugely disadvantaged with no way to fix it is really killing my motivation.

How can i climb out of this and start building up some confidence, and ultimately start sleeping with some attractive women?