So tonight I went to a club and I got there just as the dance floor was kicking into gear. I was doing my thing, vibing off of other people around me.... Seems like lately, a lot of guys see me as the guy to high-five, and tonight was no different. I was also cheers-ing people around me to get reactions and see who was running at my speed. Then two things happened at about the same time:

  • I cheers-ed my way into a dance circle with about 6 girls. One of the girls didn't have a drink so I gave her a kiss on the cheek in lieu of cheers-ing her. The other girls got a kick out of it and a few of them started sizing me up.

  • I made eye contact with Girl A about 10-12 feet away from me, who was dancing kind of dirty with some guy.

After I made eye contact with Girl A, I was still playing with the girls in the dance circle, trying to figure out if any of them were interesting or if they were all too shy.....but I still made the "come hither/bring it on" gesture at Girl A and she responded with her eyes and facial expression.... and responded well: apparently I got her attention. Next thing I knew, Girl A had cut through the crowd between her and I, and started straddling me/dirty dancing me. I had no idea what had happened to me, but in retrospect, it came down to me focusing on having fun and being fun, and with this girl, not caring whether she came to me or not because I had options. The girls in the dance circle were shocked at the abruptness of it all and Girl A said something to them that apparently put them off. (EDIT: I would later discover in text communications with Girl A, that she had merely tried to get the other girls involved. The problem was that they were too shy AND overpowered by the strength with which she (Girl A) came at me.)

Then she drank some of my beer and started to go to town on me. Outwardly, I went with the flow, even as part of me inwardly sat back in shock at how fast it came together. She started guiding my hands all over her body.......that was about the time that I went in for the k-close. After that she kept biting her lip and giving me the anime doe eyes before and after we kissed.

And then things got interesting. She started to pull in another guy to make the whole thing a sandwich. I didn't really mind: it was all fun and games for me at that time. Though I noticed that used her placement of my hands on her body to make me claim her to the other guy she was playing with, as if to say, you can play with me, but RecyclableBantha really has me. I didn't need the reassurance but I made note that she was offering it. This contrast would continue, with the kissing getting really tender & emotionally charged and us getting really really handsy, but her still grabbing other guys to play with at the same time. "Old Me" from a few years ago would have gotten carried away. "New Me" reveled in the fun of it all.

I realized that the logistics were not in my favor: she had 4 possessive and protective guy friends with her, and though I made sure to introduce myself to them, I saw that they would eventually win out. Isolating her in the club was workable but taking her out of it, was not. So I got her number before she left. Because our conversation was really good and the overall interaction had gained a certain sweet quality, I texted her as I was on my way home after I left the club...... She has responded and we've had a little back and forth...... It will be interesting to see what happens next.

But for now, it's almost morning, and as planned, writing this field report has helped make me wind down so it's time to go to bed.....

TL;DR: Realized that I was maintaining outcome independence because I was able to fully enjoy a night screwing around with a girl who would have twisted me into a knot a few years ago.