I am at a very cool outdoor party on someones land/estate, sitting on a picnic bench with very attractive girl Diane. We have been vibing for maybe 15 minutes. She asks "Where's Jane?, I just want to bury my face in her breasts!" I say "I know! Isn't she beautiful? I came to this party just to see her, but I am really enjoying getting to know you, and your breasts are also pretty spectacular" or something similar. Just then Jane shows up to say good bye and Diane does in fact bury her face in Jane's breasts, creating a playful sexual vibe, and also revealing that Diane might be a bit drunk. (as am I) Jane leaves and now it is just me and Diane in the center of this party. Diane is now very sexually charged and starts rubbing my thighs, and I am doing the same to her. We are discussing the tactile and sexual feel of flesh and kind of nuzzling and groping (in plain view of all the party) I grab her breast and she doesn't resist, but kind of gets shy and withdrawn. I realize she is drunker than I thought. I pull back. Moments later she vomits. I get her some water and let her rest on the picnic bench while lying down. A friend of hers (and mine) comes over and we take her to a (outdoor) couch. I say goodbye and leave.

Now I think I felt up the drunk girl! At the very least I was tacky and stepped over a line of decorum. At worst I feel like I violated a drunk girl sexually in front of a whole party! (when I say girl I am sure she was at least 30) I can't get it out of my head. I want to find her on Facebook and apologize, but I also don't want to blow it out of proportion if it is all in my head.

This issue gets to the heart of my problem with Women. My feminist upbringing makes it SOOO hard for me to be aggressive, or even sexual with women. And when I am, I feel like a creep and a rapist.

A little background. I am 40 and have been a chump most of life. I have always been very popular with men and woman, but the goddamn mayor of Friend Zone The last 5 years have been better since I discovered PUA and developed some inner and outer game. I am trying harder and have some success, but this fear of being a creep (and maybe even being one) is tearing me apart. Every miss-step hurts my soul. If I don't make a move, I feel like a pussy. And when I make a move, I feel like a predator.

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