Up until now: Met her two months ago, she likes me

Now: I made a rule for myself if I don't ask her today I'm not going to. (ps I even made a post about asking her out)

I didn't. I rationalized every reason not to do it. My plan is when I first see her I'm just going to do it, but this is what I've done instead:

  1. Got out of the bus, but I took a different route because I saw a friend and wanted to talk to him

This is what has been going through my mind: (Okay. No problem, I'll see her again. Got the whole day ahead of me)

  1. When my class finished, my friends and I went to the hall (or some shit like that, basically where students go between classes)At this point I know she's one floor below me, probably just standing doing nothing, but I stayed with my friends because I have fun with my friends.

(Sheesh so what if you're talking with your friends, you have whole day ahead of you to do it, besides you haven't seen her yet.)

  1. My friends and I hada lunch together and we went outside to take some fresh air, I know she's around here somewhere because that's where most of us hang out. And then she walked past us. We looked at each other awkwardly for a second and then she just kept walking.

(Yes you've seen her but she was with her friends probably busy)

  1. After that break we went back to school. On our way who do I see? That's right, she's smoking a blunt with the said friends. Someone from my group made a joke, and I laughed while awkwardly walking past her without even saying hi.

(I was listening to the joke, I had no time to stop and say hi.)

  1. I'm in my class and then I start thinking about all this shit. Then I decided. Okay whne the class ends I'm going to find her and just do it. Class ends, I'm walking to another class and there I see her and she sees me. But fuck it it's better to be stupid and ask my stupid friend a stupid fucking question because hey she's fucking busy FUCKING WALKING.

I honestly don't know what to do at this point. All of this happened just in one day, but my whole fucking October has been like this. EVERY FUCKING DAY.

Man I've theorized my every move and I convinced myself that I don't like her when I do. Guys she's the most beautiful girl I've ever layed my eyes upon.

And now I'm just sitting here falling into depression.