I'm a 20 year old male that has had a hard time figuring out how to come out of this deep hole i've put myself in. I've never had a role model in my life that I could look up to and give me that push whenever I wanted to get or do something.

All my life I've always felt inferior, had low self confidence and no motivation to better myself. I dont want to keep living my life having severe social anxiety anymore. I don't go to school or work right now so the majority of my time I just sit in my room playing video games to burn down the hours and I really want to change this as I dont see this as something I would do in the long-run

Nothing is going on in my life, I have 0 friends, 0 game with girls and I feel hopeless. I know that I can do better than this but there is something holding me back which is FEAR.

The thing is I know what I need to do to come out of this shell but I'm afraid it won't go as planned, the fact that I'll deal with many rejections and embarrass myself countless times is terrifying or should I say i have a fear of failure. Everything I need to do is right ahead of me and I see it, but I just cant find a way to get started on my journey and take that first step.

What's your thought on this?

Thanks.