A summary of my life in past 4 months

Met my High School Crush after 10 years over POF. Went Super Oneitis on her. I am talking legendary AFC statues. Told her I don’t want to see her anymore after 4 months of her flaking over text (Only talked to her on the phone once), because I have feelings for her from High School. Then after "blocking her" for a week, She then became attracted and wanted to see me. She lived in another city and made the effort to come see me.

Got her on a coffee date, went amazing, then went SUPER AFC after the date and confessed love to her over text. She told me not to contact her anymore. Rejected! I sent her 3 emails after apologizing (idiot). No response.

I knew all the literature, but I never applied it. After my mistakes with this girl, I learned what I did wrong. First time I took risk to not be in the friend zone in my life. Got rejected but learned many lessons.

Never show woman you need them, feel indifferent about them, become apathetic, do not chase after one girl. Only give attention to girls who show interest. Picking up woman is like catching the train, if you miss one, there will always be a next. Even If you get to be with your oneitis, she will make your life into a living hell. I am done with my needy behavior and foolish ways. I really don’t care about getting girls anymore; I care about becoming the man I want to be. If I do see this girl in the future, am going to ignore her and let her chase me (or any tips on what to do?).

I wish people learn from my mistake instead of going through them, but its best to suffer the pain of rejection and learn.