I don't really have a crazy transformation story but what has changed has been real. And I owe this sub a thank you.

In high school I was considered "attractive" and could have success with HB8s and HB9s but I would have lingering issues like putting them on pedestals and being afraid to escalate physically. The biggest thing was I didn't know my value. I would always be in the mindset of "I don't deserve you and why do you like me?" Sometimes I would even avoid going a route where I knew the girl I liked would be, because I was so in my head and nervous. I would be so worried to fuck up an interaction. And even outside of school I would always HOPE to death I didn't see someone I knew.

Fast forward to college years, I would attend class and go straight home. I wouldn't interact with classmates and I would be extremely to myself. I knew I wasn't happy.

So I discovered this sub and learned even basic stuff like eye contact and it changed my confidence significantly. I would never make strong eye contact in the past and now I can FEEL connections being made through my eye contact. I'm more social in class and talk to EVERYBODY. Guys and girls. I read Models and really tried to soak in the whole vulnerability stuff which in the past I would be so scared because I was worried about what other people thought of me. But now I realize it's what I think about myself and that if someone doesn't like me, I shouldn't internalize that or take it personally. I F-Closed for the first time internalizing all these things recently. I don't know for sure if it was because of the things that I learned and employed or other factors but regardless, it happened.

I still struggle with approaching when I'm by myself in a setting such as a gym because it just feels so damn off but I'm slowly trying to peel away at myself until I'm ready to do such things. I think the biggest thing is to just have fun because that will kill your neediness as you have no expectations except to please yourself and be in the moment.

Anyway, this is really jumbled as I don't have the time to write something really good but I just want to thank you guys. I am happy with the man that I am becoming and it's not even about seducing girls. I can better connect with people by sharing my vulnerable side and my relationships have strengthened. It's made me a better man, which ultimately will attract girls in itself. I don't really feel the need to try anymore.