a little background info on me:

I am pretty new into this whole lifestyle. I was never great with girls but I still managed to do alright in college and what not just based on sheer numbers/alcohol etc. However, I was always very self conscious and was not the most confident person. I have since been working on these things and have been improving my self image more every day. I convinced myself I wanted to be in a relationship and I think this drove many women away as I became needy and they could tell I pretty much just wanted to do everything in my power to keep them around.... after a couple short term GF's and random lays and hookups here and there...I really started this journey in March.

To this day this has been my biggest accomplishment in game:

So I go to this party about 3 weeks ago with a buddy of mine from college. There were about 20 girls and 5 guys which is great. Of the 20 girls maybe 5 or so were "hot." However, there was one girl who was pretty much an 8.5 and was definitely the hottest girl at this party..and she knew it. So as I walk in with my friend, she's standing by the door and introduces herself and I introduce myself etc. I go on to talk to others at the party and hang out with my buddy and shoot the shit. We all end up going to a bar nearby. This whole time I'd been gaming this one girl who was really into me as well as this other girl which I later found out was a virgin so I kinda stopped trying there. To make a long story short, I ended up getting three girls numbers that night and 2 makeouts. The 8.5 I maybe spoke to for about 5 minutes combined from the party and the bar and manged to get her number.

I texted her to meet up the following week...she was busy. I then texted her to meet the week after and she said she could only do Sunday or Monday.. i was like ok its evident shes too cool to block off a "real date night" day of the week for me.. whatever. So I say fuck it lets do Monday night.

This past Monday we go to a bar and grab a couple beers and talk. We actually hit it off and I don't really play into her being so caught up in how great she thinks she is going to grad school on a full scholarship etc. yada yada. I start lightly touching her arm as I make points, have my arm around her chair, and pretty much go in for the kiss about an hour into the date. She says something like "woaa going in for the kiss at the bar huh?" and I respond saying I had to...couldn't resist.. she seemed to like it.

So I suggest we go to another bar and grab some food and another beer which we do. We continue more touching and kissing etc. As we are walking back to the train we each have our arm around each other and have been kissing off and on throughout the walk. As we near the train I say to her..."I have an idea..you come stay the night with me and we can take the train to work in the morning since I live right there"...something along those lines... As expected she put up some resistance but I could tell I could win. So I said " you should do what YOU want to do...not what you think other people would tell you to do..you're an adult and can make your own decisions"...this actually worked..There was a look in her eyes like "wow that was deep/extremely confident... So I was like lets go watch a movie and hangout nothing more..I said something like I don't fuck on first dates anyway even though I obviously was going to try to since she was fucking smoking hot. She then said something like "you know if I go home with you we are going to have sex and I'll never see you again" I kind of just let this go at the time. I thought who the fuck knows..this could be my best chance ever to fuck this girl..who knows if I'd get a second date and maybe I'd never get to bang her... I was like "lets go" and led her onto the train back to my place.

Immediately when we get back we start making out on the bed..its definitely getting passionate etc. clothes come off. She has the nicest fucking tits I've ever seen. so we continue foreplay a little... I get her all wet etc and she asks if I have a condom which obviously I do handy. We fuck for about 4-5 minutes..I wish I could have been better but she was super hot so I couldn't last as long as I would have. and she gave me head before...we lied in bed and cuddled for a little while after and kept touching each other... morning came and at about 5am we were both up and we start making out again and shes getting all hot so I go down on her and make her cum..(I'm actually really good at getting girls off with oral). she then blows me swallows..the whole 9 yards..

Comes time to to go to work. Nothing is awkward we talk, laugh, hang out like we've known each other. We both slept completely naked and walked around the room naked until we put our clothes on for work so we were definitely comfortable around each other...i definitely inferred we both had fun and she enjoyed her time..

2 days after this went down I texted her to tell her I was thinking of going on a short hike on memorial day since the weather was going to be nice and said I'd love for her to join me...I have yet to get a response and its been over 1.5 days....I'm not sure if this came across needy or what not or if my emotions got in the way..I actually did enjoy hanging out wit her and the sex/bj was fucking great and shes super hot..I think I'll wait till next week and see if shes down to hang and if not I'll just chalk it up to an awesome experience that built my confidence and that I can learn from in the future. As I look back and yes it sucks I probably wont continue to fuck this chick on the reg like I want to (maybe she was serious when she said I'd never see her again..who the fuck knows)...it is still leaps and bounds further than where I started...I would ever imagine going on a date with her mind fucking her on the 1st date.. In the end I fucking won and she lost...she gave up her only source of power on day 1 since she couldn't resist...that made me feel good.