Wazzaap! i'm Casablanca, i have 19 years old and i'm with serious "values" problens, i'm not an english native speaker, so if any grammar mistake arise, im sorry.

Some shit happened to me these past years, these shit more the fact im what some here can call "beta" broke me so hard.

For be fast, i'm always in a "defensive" way, like everybody are my enemy (kinda of), and this problem merged with some alpha and pua concepts in a point that i turned to be little arrogant.

This turned me to a egocentric guy who cant respect anybody if they're not powerfull in a social way, i'm taking myself constantly being disgusted by some of my dad's actions and consequently, disgusting he. Even though he IS a good dad, take care of me since i lived.

I really HATE what is going with me right now, i dont want to be like that. How i need to perceive the world? how i need to perceive others?