I will start by telling you how I got into pickup, where I stand currently and what I'm aiming for. It will be long so bare with me.

OK let's start: I'm 22 years old, I'm a programmer, I currently in my country Navy. And I'm one of their best programmers. I work in an office building inside a base near one of our major "hangouts" cities which is good because it allows me to freely practice pickup after working hours (can leave the base freely). Any way, until two months ago a female coworker moved out of my office (which consists of 4-5 people) to a new one because she felt it will be the only promotion she will get in the near future. The thing is that I, without noticing that over the time she was in my office I developed feelings for her. The problem was that I knew that she didn't feel the same, but it was killing me from inside. So I went and talked with her privately and asked her if she might think of me more then a friend. Of course I got a no and I was disappointed but it didn't break me. After that, because I was a pessimistic person who barely said good morning to people I said to myself it will have to change. I started forcing myself to smile each morning, saying good morning even if I don't feel like it is. Then i started to feel a lot better. But it wasn't enough. I had to get rid of the feelings I have for my coworker as it was still killing me. So I registered to a pickup course and started to meet people who just like me trying to improve themselves in the area of women. But again I met a new problem, I can barely approach. If some how I do approach I can keep a talk, will still need to work on attracting but the approach part is almost impossible for me. So I went and made appointments with a pickup coach and again a new problem arises... This time he asked me to allow myself to be connected to my feelings, specifically he requested that I need to find a way to make myself comfortable with crying in front of him as it will allow him to guide me how to be more in control of my feelings and allow me to use them to my advantage.

Next week on Thursday I'm going to meet him for another session, I said to myself that I'll allow myself to show this side that I hate in me (crying/being over sensitive) as I really want to advance and get myself a girlfriend or even better a partner for life (which is slim as I'm a too young for that stuff)

Is there any advices or comments you guys feel like sharing? Words of encouragement are welcome as well.