So basically this is somewhere between 'I need advice' and 'idk what's wrong with me'.

I am 15 years old and a freshman in high school. I may be a bit young to be on here (don't even say it -_-) but people tell me I'm very mature for my age and honestly I just don't care what people think about the fact I'm on this subreddit.

I have been playing the violin for 8 years and done the districts junior ensemble in first violins for all three years of middle school and today I tried out for senior districts, which could go up to state or nationals if I was good enough (not quite yet).

I get straight A's in school. I'm sociable and actually have friends. I have a select few that are girls but oftentimes they're nothing like me in the way that I like to play sports and such. Im a Star Scout. I'm on the freshman VEX Robotics team. I was recently very involved with the election and assisted in multiple campaigns.

I'm lonely. I do like girls, but I get messed up by it. I never do anything right and pretty much anything I say becomes awkward. They seem to be repelled almost. I have good hygiene and I've been told that I'm attractive but that doesn't mean much. I'm kind of depressed and have been for almost a year but my mother's only reaction is shouting about how I don't deserve to be depressed because my life is so good. She's the opposite of supportive and always says that I am a disappointment of a son.

Anyone on Reddit out there who can help me?