I broke up with an ex-gf 2 months ago. I am doing pretty well when it comes to recovery. I have been doing all the right things and starting to feel really good about myself.

I like to hit up clubs and bars alone on the weekends. It's great and I have loads of fun, but there are certain popular events that I am worried to see her at. For example, if I saw her during a night out it would ruin my night because I would be conflicted between staying and having to see her around or leaving and looking like a chump. Not only this, but I get this anxiety that shell judge me and thing "hah, look at him. coming to these events alone. how pathetic." I know that this is just my head fucking with me.

My problem is that I am not 100% over her and there is a part of me that still cares about what she thinks. If she sees me anywhere I want her to see me having a great time with a girl or something. I guess its me wanting to get revenge or something. I understand I still have some things to resolve when it comes to her, but I don't want to let some shit like this hold me back from going to events that I want go to, because I have a great time.

Any advice? I know this relationship based, but the reason I want to go to these events is to get out there, become more social and meet women.