Alright ya'll. I haven't slept with a girl for 4 years. Typing that makes me realise what an redicilus ammount of time that is. So im 22 right now, last time I slept with a girl it was my old girlfriend who I was seperated from. During this timespan since then and now Ive had countless oportunities of 1 night stands offered to me but I have refused them or chickened out every single time. Theres even been twice when Ive brought girls to my place and theyve slept naked in my arms making out with me. But both does times ive chickened out thinking "I cant bang this chic, All the waiting for this? You doesnt even like this girl" and ive rolled over to fall asleep. Theese women have both been pretty attractive and my friends are calling me stupid cuz theyd bang the livin shit out of them. So what am I comming to with all of this? Well lately Ive realised that I want to experience life to the fullest and I dont want to regret stuff I didnt do. A guy my age shouldnt be a selibate monk and that never was my intention either. I should have screwed those girls just like the others ive found attractive but didnt go all the way with. Cuz thats what im regretting I didnt do. Id also like to mention and you decide wether its relevant or not and dont take it as bragging. I find my self a pretty attractive guy and my surroundings do aswell. Girls compliment me on my looks and some random guys also has so im not concerned about my looks at all. New people that I meet often assume that theres women constantly dropping panties around me. The pointing game that people play at partys you know, theres sometimes a question about whos had the most bedpartners, people that barely know me decided that I must be that guy. My old girlfriend was literally the most popular girl in my old school. She had the looks, outgoing, smart. But as mentioned she did all the work with me. I allowed it to happen. Why am I telling ypu this? Well its because all times ive madeout with girls or even brought them home its they who have been hitting on me. Theyve made the effort to come up to me and so on. My old girlfriend was the one doing the hard work in the beginning, then that changed. Conclusion being I have basically never picked up a girl, theyve picked me up or atleast we have really met in the middle. This have caused me to be anxious or confused if I really like them or not = im not sleeping with them since I dont feel comfortable. This has been like a negative spiral sucking me in and also since I havent gotten laid in the last 4 fking years I feel like ive lost some sexual comfort in all what escalation and that stuff demands. I dont really have a specific question Id just like others opinion or tips in terms of changing my situation. This is not something Ive straight out told my friends so I felt first step in changing thid shit is putting it out there anonymously, im not the stud people assume I am and that I wish I was. I could try to ask this. Have you ever chickened out from having sex with a girl who lays there with legs open wide? I feel like theres something in my mind thats broken. I dont want to look atmyself as someone who banged this unworthy girl (I know I sound horrible. But thats whats been scaring me. Like, its a trap mentality. I guess my second questoon would be, where do I begin? I want to go talk to the girls that I like, not hoping they will come to me. Also id apreciate tips on how not to chicken out on my next window of opportunity. I also realise this post must be looking like shit. Im typing from my cellphone and english isnt my native language. Anyway just give me anything you got guys im all ears.