I am a 21yo male. Kept my head low due to bullying in childhood. The past year I have become a lot bolder, more confident, witty etc etc.

In college I am the friendly guy who everyone likes as well as respects due to performance. I am also the rep of the class and the "rock" everyone turns to.

The point of this post is not to "brag" about being the popular kid in class. I just want to contrast this with what seems to be happening on my free time. During the summer I was kinda awesome and the party spirit, going out everyday. After school started I can't seem to go out for a drink without my state crashing hard.

Am i fucking depressed (was for a while years ago and it felt the same)? Am I plain old tired due to a very demanding schedule? Could it be the state I had during the summer wore off due to not going out as often?

Just back and semi drunk. Went into the club full of confidence, having received compliments for my group regarding both hairstyle (which I changed recently) and what I was wearing. A guy I was having problems with was in out group but it didn't get to me. I decided behaving in a magnanimous way toward him was what I wanted to do. That's how good my mood was..

A female friend knows this hot full figured waitress at the club and she stops for mini breaks at our table quite often. She mentions she is looking for a man. My "rival" tries to be cocky and she says "I said a man". She might have even looked toward me for a bit but I'm not sure...

Anyway then she kinda says she wants the man to display dominance whendancer and ai d. She did seem to think we wouldn't understand what she said. I did a mini cold-read telling her what I could surmise from what she said making sure to banter to keep things light. She leaves and our group starts dancing. That's when I notice I can't fucking dance. This drove me nuts inside as my friends think I am a hell of a dancer and I like dancing a lot.

It all spirals down from there. When things start quieting down a bit she gets back and starts dancing next to me. That made me so frustrated as I still couldn't dance. Normally I would have danced the shit out of her...

What is wrong with me guys? Seriously? This strikes me as very odd as I seem to be having sucess with an older woman (which I wrote a post about) and feel extremely confident and optimistic about it.