broke up with a girl 3 weeks ago. at first i was relieved. started hitting the gym to keep my mood up. it worked for a short period. now ive sunk into a hole. i feel devastated. im looking at my life and what a mess it is. im constantly checking my phone to see if shes called. fuck im so down. i sent her an email a few days ago. i now realize that was a mistake. i wish she would call me. just so i know that shes thinking of me.. and not fucking other guys. im sorry. i feel pathetic.