Hello guys, I am 29. I am very bad with girls. Had very few girl contacts. During the long years being alone, I feel like developed some kind of sociopaty or something. I cannot connect with girls anymore.

I however feel confident contacting and have success being funny and appreciated sometimes. But when it comes to intimicy I am dead scared, don't know how to approach intimately and thus let girls lead. As result they get bored very soon of course as I get capsulated during that time.

All intimacy and sex I had was provoked by girls and not me. It scares me. I like women and sex but I don't like this intimacy thing. I developed logical approach to all this matter while most people go emotional I think.

I installed tinder and badoo, had good conversations, joking having fun etc but that's it. A girl just blocked me for not wanting to meet her. She sent me naked pictures and became intimate very quickly, but I did not like the way she thinks also did not like that much intimacy. I just don't want to meet girls that randomly.

I picked up a waitress from a cafe me and friends went to a few months ago. I guess i did not lead to intimacy and she also stepped away.

I am confused right now and I am not caring anymore actually. I am having fun with myself but on the other side I am missing girls company really. Something is very wrong. I maybe need to change my social circle or something. I don't know actually.

As a matter of fact I was way much worse. I can see great improvement with girls in the past year or so, becoming confident and open minded but it still feels so messed up..

You tell me guys. What can you tell about me doing wrong. How to improve? I will respond only to straight forward answers.

PS. Something inside me whispers me that I am narcisist and egoist. 2 years ago I felt like having ADD (attention deficit disorder), but I now don't believe in this disease. I am very self oriented and love working alone. Me and a close friend created an online store together. I sabbotaged the project as I wanted all for me only. This may also be helping you to get the picture.. I don't know.

I often try to prove better than others at least to myself. I want to be the best in everything I know that for sure. If not, I work hard in that direction. This is why I submitted this post actually. :D

I actually believe that it is easier to buy sex rather than playing that tiring intimacy game and I am ok to go that way if this would remove all this complexity..