Brief history: dated girl for 4.5 years. Huge mistake. Lost all my game. Left her and dated another girl for 6 months. Fell apart. Single for six months and was miserable. Date girl for 2.5 months and came out great after I broke up. But now I'm here. Not knowing what to do with this good mood.

I do believe I have some sort of social anxiety, worrying about what people think and tailoring my responses to that. I know it's a bad habit because I don't end up being my truest self. I also don't approach. I'm guessing it's fear of what could go wrong I.e. that knock to the ego. But I have my life together to a tee. Working a paid internship, I'm ahead in school. Bills paid. Never miss homework. So I feel that the next step for me is a girl.

I feel like my biggest problem and the root of the other problems is facing myself and who I am and owning it. Being my true self and continuing to be that person. I can't relax and just be me. There's always this thought of what should I say and how should I say it. This also impacts me taking the lead, or when I do I feel like a dick. I don't end up doing what I want and feel like a pushiver. Any advice on overcoming these hurdles?