Why the fuck posting on reddit and reading the stuff some weird stanger will suggest me? I am in a real powerful frame of mind currently, literally exploding out from my very inside. I wasted my life in the last years and currently it seems as if my mind actually adapts to the PUA and Self-Development stuff im blasting onto it every single day. My approaches so far a very few to be honest, but i actually did them. I see the positive in it and i think im going a bit nuts. Like i feel as if i NEED to DO SOMETHING NOW. However i understand there is time to be euphoric and there is time to be calm. Being in a calm antisocial state for all the years im currently as mentioned, POWERING towards the outside. God, fuck my awful english - even if it is enough to be understood.

One thing i did realise which feels like quite the annoyance is how much i DO NOT LIKE CLUBBING AT ALL. Sure, people have their very own 'excuses' for not going out whatsoever, but im honest here. I am a goth which for the sake of changing went to a club-night full of Reaggoton (or however you write that shit) and even managed to kinda enjoy the whole process. I made a few reference experiences, managed to watch a ULTRAGOOD natural do his thing and used knowledge i made to my advantage. Some faggots bored out of their mind sitting at their wanne-be table tried to fuck with me. Like literally tried to condescend me by all means possible. I took them for the clowns which they were and laughed with em and coulnd't care less. They were confusing at most, but couldn't mess with my mood.

I can deal with clubbing, but overall it doesn't matter how good or bad - i will not experience true enjoyment in this very atmosphere. Drinking, smoking, making out for the sake of fast gratifacton or validation. Eww. I wanne put atleast SOME of my passion into it. Not just being carelessness and getting pussy by not giving a fuck about the surroundings.

Yeah, thats my weird gibberish/ranting/mindset. All coming down to this question: "Should i simply go for daygame? Am i just to narrowminded towards the party-scene? Am i missing something in the nightlife which i should try?"

Major graditude for reading trough my puzzled thoughtpattern.