Sorry for the wall of text. So I noticed this big time this valentines. I'm not afraid of women or looking dumb or taking the risk. I love to go out on a limb, and do it swimmingly.

But when I get the phone number, the phone call, the first step towards actually meeting up, I flake out big time. I quit texting and just fade away. I don't make friends at school or in life because of the same thing, I don't want to be found out for being a flakey bastard.

I know I need to work on my self esteem for serious reasons. I'm 24 and ive never really had a normal job. I don't have any money. I just moved in with my folks. I don't have many friends to validate me either so whatever self esteem I do have is very self diagnosed. I have ambitions, but I haven't done anything with it ever. I slide along the bottom and talk real big.

So I don't want to be found out. I am working out, going out of my comfort zones every day, but the girl thing is bringing me down. It wont be hard to break down the wall if I just know what I should expect. Any advice would be great. Thank you!