SO I've been seeing this girl since Saturday. I know it's a very short relationship leading up until now, but just listen to my story. I would also ask the men in here to only give me sincere advice. I feel bad for what i'm about to share with you, and now I realize what my problems really are.

So I met this girl on Tinder last week and we eventually met up on Saturday. We had a good date, went to the park, got a bite to eat, make out section, it was awesome. The next day she texted me wanting to make a date for Monday. I told her I was busy and that Tuesday would be a better day for us. I've NEVER been shit tested so bad in my life by a female. I must of been passing them because she wanted to keep seeing me (I guess). She was also extremely observant, I know girls are normally like this anyway, but she was pointing out little things about me that I never noticed before. Honestly, I found it very fascinating to say the least. She asked me alot of personal questions, things about my life, my passions, my goals etc. Things girls almost never ask about. I felt like she was really trying to get to know me.

Now for what happened today....

We met earlier in the evening downtown. So we started talking about our day and while we were walking we started getting hungry, so we went to this salad place nearby. There we got into a series of debates and started sharing stuff about ourselves. I felt a power struggle when speaking to this woman, I started realizing that she was very masculine and could hold herself up very well in the heat of battle. There was a point in the discussion where she reached out to me and said, "You know me and you would have great sex, right?" Which I nodded "yeah". Then I told her, "Well we can get a room right now there's an app for that". She thought about it and said, "Is it ok if I never speak to you again after tonight?" I was very confused, so I took it the wrong way (It was shit test #10000000, when does it end?!)

Walking to the hotel it didn't feel exciting, nor fun, and I started getting a weird gut feeling. My heart started racing, my hands were shaking, and I was uneasy. She then looked at me and said, "Were you planning this all along?" Which I said, "No...". We went silent for another 3 minutes, she looked at me and said, "Just know that I do not trust you AT ALL". At this point my mood is dead, I don't want to have sex anymore. In fact, I just want to go home, but I had already booked the room so we had to go.

We checked in and went to the room. She took a shower and curled up in bed. I was still in my work clothes, just sitting there feeling annoyed while this woman was throwing herself at me telling me to fuck her. I started to ease up a little which allowed me to have a heavy make out section while I finger popped her. Her pussy was so wet that I could literally fit my entire fist in there, it was crazy. I took my hand out and there was brown stuff all over my hand she took me to the bathroom to wash her hands and I washed mine. We went back to bed and while I was trying to put my condom on she threw herself at me. My reflexes made me pushed her out of the way. I felt like she was trying to get on top without my condom on. She was absolutely distraught, she said I pushed her away like a piece of garbage and afterwards she started crying...

Afterwards I felt bad so I went to comfort her, and she said something that stuck to me: "Do you get off on this? Is this what you do? You treat people like shit and then you try to comfort them?" Echo's of my ex girlfriend from 2 years ago, she use to tell me this whenever I got mad. We didn't end up having sex. I put my clothes on and sat there while she called me a piece of shit and everything else in the book. Honestly, we were both waiting for our Ubers, we didn't talk whatsoever, she wants NOTHING to do with me (and I don't really blame her). This woman was trying to sharpen me like a knife and I ran from the challenge, it was far too scary for me, I didn't know how to handle someone so direct and upfront. She was smart, observant, and independent, but I felt like she was gas-lighting me at times. I don't really want to say I dodged a bullet, it feels more like I ran from a challenge. When I left the hotel she was still crying, sitting there, waiting for her Uber to arrive. She didn't want to talk to me at all so I just left.

Things I've recognized:

-I have a serious problem with casual sex, intimacy, and women who are grounded.

-I have a problem being vulnerable at the right times.

-I paid for a hotel room and didn't have sex (lol)

-I feel worst about what I've discovered about myself, than not having sex.

-Question: Why was throwing all these shit test at me? Why was she testing me so fucking much?

CLEARLY i'm done with this chick and I know I have a history of bad post and comments although out TRP, but I really want help. I feel empty inside right now.

What do you guys take away from this story?