I originally posted this on a few subreddits and I'm posting it here just to see what you all think. so here it is:

Are girls mean to guys whom they like or liked? Because from my experience alone when I try to pursue a girl (which have lead to rejection) or even when they know I'm interested they all ended being really mean to me!! And I'm not talking about playful teasing no, I mean being mean i.e talking shit behind my back, hitting me, rumour spreading etc. I find that so odd because I thought girls would do that sort of thing to each other!! It really made me even more cautious and anxious talking to girls. Because all of them were nice at the start but later on they weren't!! And I did get some girls whom are nice to talk to but some of them I'm not interested in and some of them I never talk to again or just talk very little afterwards.

I've never spoke to the (mean) girls again after trying to pursue them because I know it's not worth it, I'ved move on already. But I feel like the negative experience keeps coming back to my mind subconsciously because you never know what's going to happen with the girls you talk to, the same thing can repeat.

The only thing really negative I could think of I did at the time was that I was annoying and a little bit awkward but recently it has improved!! And I was quite happy with it. Now all I do is just act weird to women and say a load of random and funny stuff. What's weird is that I know that most (or all) of those mean girls secretly fancied me I know I'm very handsome and funny but to me it sounded bizarre. There's really no signs subtly for someone to tell but I can assure you that they did!!

I did accept that at they didn't like me (at the time) so I eventually moved on. But the crazy part is that when I leave them alone completely, they all start liking me again!! They didn't start the rumour spreading and all that other crap. And they've even smiled and glanced at me!! I forgot to mention that but yeah, as soon as I accepted that they don't like me, they eventually did despite the fact that I've never communicated with them again (even to this day). Of course they never had the guts to admit it. I thought getting older would mean that things would be a little bit better, even years after. But it didn't really seem like the case right now so it looks like I have to wait longer. That's why I was a little confused because they kept changing their minds!!

You can tell that I'm young and new to this whole thing but looking at other stories and searching my question, my question just seemed fruitless so that's why I asked here to see what you all think!!

P.S (and a little rant): I really think the society I'm in right now is pretty weird (and even the few I talk to actually agree with me, so I'm not the only ones taking crazy pills), things are pretty much "gender neutral" (As in there's really no diversity in personality, even appearance looks similar) and boring. Like girls hang around with guys whom I think are just not the type that they are meant to be with because those are the same type of guys they've been dumping and chasing. What's crazy is that these guys are perhaps even more of douche bag and annoying than I am yet the girls just accept this? Like what the hell? I know things don't come easy but people really tend to think that they're better than everyone and often take small things into such big things! Like even guys do that crap! like WTF??? Extra: I do have the belief that I will eventually have the ability to seduce women and how torecognise a REAL good women (I'm trying not to be too specific in types of women otherwise I'd go crazy LOL)