Hey Guys. Long time lurker here. I'm typing this freshly , a day after my first ever date. English isn't my native language so don't bash me , Thanks!

First about me :

I'm 21 , have had social anxiety aswell as massive approach anxiety in the past. Kissless virgin so far.What I have going my way is I'm 6"3 and relatively handsome.

I've always watched a ton of videos on the topic (honest signalz , RSD etc.) but didn't take action because of the fear.Things have been going on better and better lately , in the past months I've approached some girls in real life , and gained more confidence.

Last week i've installed Tinder , made a profile and started to talk to this beautiful 18 yo girl. I was very witty and fun in text , and asked her out within 10~ messages. She happily obliged and well... yesterday showed up on our date scheduled 6pm in the park.

  • At the beginning of the date we greeted eachother with a hug initiated by me and I told her she looks better than on the pictures. Her beauty was kinda overwhelming and made me a bit nervous as I haven't had an experiance of date with a beautiful girl yet , but I've kept my composure pretty well and started to feel more comfortable after 2-3 minutes. I led her to get ice cream , we started to get to know each other. After we got ice cream SHE took the lead and said lets go this way. This felt weird as I didn't even have time to take the lead here. Leading was one of my main assumptions - I realize how important it is.

Anyway back to the date. We took a pretty long walk in the park , and she led 3 out of 5 times the direction where we went. After a pretty long walk we sat on the bench and talked for about 60 mins. Worth mentioning that the whole date took exactly two hours.

I got to know that its also her first tinder date despite her being on tinder for a longer time and getting matches left&right. She mentioned that my texting was great , made her laugh and she shared our convos with her best friend.

Now very important point for me which was very misleading. Despite her seeming so confident and even leading me , she had terrible eye contact. Walking or sitting on a bench - when she was talking she was talking to an invisible person in front of her 70-80% of the time. When she was listening to me she was 50/50% looking at my eyes or looking in front of her. I teased her about it but she didn't improve. Confusing as that would be a sign of shyness / her being uncomfortable. She also kept on playing with her purse and whilist being called on that she said that its her habbit and she has to do something with her hands.

  • Now about getting to know each other part. We literally didn't connect on a single topic. She doesn't like sport like I do , likes different kind of music , doesn't play video games , doesn't like to dance , doesn't enjoy poker or chess etc. The list goes long , I tried so many times to find a topic of mutual interest , but it just wasn't happening.At some point I jokingly said something like "I wonder when we'll have a topic to talk about" which made her laugh , because it was very obvious that we are two very different people. I've got that feeling that her favourite thing to do is just to be social. She kept mentioning different friends or social activities through the date. Despite lack of similarities between us we managed to talk for about 2 hours with some small breaks which weren't uncomfortable. I'd say she did 60-70% of the talking overall.

Even though we didn't have mutual interests she seemed to be having fun , we joked and laughed a lot. But there also were 2 moments that I felt she's getting bored , just gonna stand up and end the date.

After about 3/4 of the date lenght she mentions that she's already got plans for later this night - to meet with friends and go on a concert. This threw me off guard , as I felt that she arleady had another plans and even if the date went well she could only stay that long and we wouldn't bounce to another location.

Now you're probably wondering about kino. Was I being sexual ? Well not counting the hugs at the beginning and the end of the date I've touched her exactly 3 times on the shoulder while making a point. She was comfortable with this light touching. While we sat on the bench and she wanted to show me something on her phone I took that as an excuse to sit closer to her , but after that I noticed that she moved further away from me so I guess she wasn't that comfortable.

  • It was my first date ever , she was very beautiful and we didn't had any similarities. That made my escalation very weak. Despite that I threw a sexual joke here and there , yet actions > words and I realize that.

I know - as Max from RSD would say - the biggest IOI a girl can give you is that she's still there. Well I realize that but I felt that If I'd go for a kiss I'd for sure get rejected and it would get awkward. Maybe I'm just a cluess inexperianced virgin but I trust my reads and emotions and going for a kiss on such a date would feel so unnatural and uncalibrated.

After she decided that its time for her to go (as I've mentioned she had plans for later that night arleady) I walked her to a bus stop , and we hugged goodbye. That was that.

To end this wall of text I want to say that despite initially feeling like I fucked up , should've gone for a kiss despite everything etc. I am very grateful for the experiance. For a lonely guy like me to get a date with a hottie like her was very "healing" and I needed that. I was so nervous through the day before the date , I am sure that two or three years ago I'd just decline it last moment , yet I showed up and spent two hours with a beautiful girl. I am sure that wether we meet a second time (highly unlikely I guess) , or with another girl - I will do much better. I will push myself to escalate better , and to kiss a girl.

Now I'm gonna ask more experianced guys here :

Should I have gone for the kiss anyway despite us not connecting that much ? Possibly on a high note after her laughing ?

Do I try to setup a 2nd date and what's the best way to do so ?

Thanks for reading and feel free to share what you think !