This is barely related to game and pickup but I feel like this is one of the few places on the internet where people could understand my problem. Apologies for the off topic nature.

I am confused about what direction I'm going in. I am torn between trying to become the most confident, unapologetic and unstifled version of myself (ie for game), and just accepting and loving myself for who I am (in order to make friends and improve my social life). Accepting myself as I am would seem to be a prerequisite for making friends, cos if you're not willing to put yourself out there then no one will get to know you. But, this seems to conflict with my desire to improve my confidence (for game and just because that's what I want). I mean, how will I ever make friends if I'm constantly changing?

I had a lot of friends a few years ago, but I felt awkward and shy and I believed I could make things better. But everything I've done to try to be more confident has actually pushed people away. I've just built this fake façade over my true self and hidden my uniqueness. I haven't made any friends in the last few years and I've either pushed away or lost contact with most of my old ones. I have virtually no friends or social life now, and yet I don't know what direction to go in to make it right.

Anyone have any advice? Thanks in advance.